Didn't know it was a date? Accidentally friend zoned her :'( help please

Hello everyone. I would like your help on this, I am not sure what to do but here goes:

Me and this girl had met during a night out through a friend. We had a great time and I asked if she would like to catch a movie some time. (She had given me her number, I didn't specifically ask for hers) she said yes, so we watched a film (she bought the tickets) and then we went to my place for half an hour. She had met my family and said that they were great and before leaving she said "I'd like to do this again some time." She had then invited me to watch a movie with her and her friend after I asked if she'd like to watch one with me. So I did and we had a great time. Then the day after, I asked if she would like to grab a coffee with me to which she said yes and we ended up going to town for 4 hours and then back to hers for 3 or so hours. We had a great time, we were constantly laughing and smiling, we had a lot more in common than I had thought and I would have loved to do this again some time. But before I left hers, I asked if she would like to go out as more than friends? To which she replied: "didn't we do that today?" And I said: "well, it wasn't very clear..." (I don't know what I was thinking " then she said: "I am not looking for a boyfriend at the moment and I'll be going back home in a couple of months" (she lives on the other side of the planet, she is only in England for a couple of months) so I asked again and she said the same thing followed by an "awww, ill text you." So I left but texted her later first saying I had a great time thanks to which she replied "me too, sorry if I disappointed you." This is when I replied with the worst thing I could have done since I felt like I made her feel bad I said "don't worry it's natural. I am still glad we are friends, long distance relationships don't work out anyway :P just thought i'd let you know how I felt. She then replies with "I hope you have fun at university, I'd better get some sleep. I don't want to be tired for work tomorrow." (Did I accidentally friend zone her?

How do I unfriendzone her? Did I even do this in the first place?
Should I ask her on another date?
Do I bring this up and explain that I was nervous and didn't know what came over me?
How do I let her know I still want to be more than friends?

I had sent her an mms the following day be she hasn't replied. I am not sure if she can receive them as she is on pay as you go. Help :'(.

We get along so well no awkward silences, laughing all the time and we pretty much had one long conversation for the whole day. And advice would be appreciated. I think that if we did not have the distance problem, that we would be going out on another date no problem. That is just my thought.

Thank you in advance.

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I think that if we did not have the distance problem, that we would be going out on another date no problem.Hi Harry,

I think it's a done deal bro. She's made it very clear what she wants and why she wants it. It's very important for you to respect that. Do you see how worried and stressed you've become? You're over thinking everything now...and that's a horrible place to try to relate to anyone from.

Question for you...

Why tell her the following, "I am still glad we are friends, long distance relationships don't work out anyway"? Is that REALLY how you feel towards her? What could you have said differently that was more honest? Sharing a little more about this comment may help to release some of the worrying you're doing...

Hi Harry,
Question for you...

Why tell her the following, "I am still glad we are friends, long distance relationships don't work out anyway"? Is that REALLY how you feel towards her? What could you have said differently that was more honest? Sharing a little more about this comment may help to release some of the worrying you're doing...

Thank you for your reply Mark, I guess I have never connected with anyone so well and I'd rather try to be friends than lose her forever. I don't even think she wants to be friends any more to be honest. I have asked if she'd like to chat and she has responded but she has never started a conversation first. (she gave me her e-mail for Skype, but we haven't had a conversation on there yet and I won't be the one starting it either)

I have decided to try and ignore her and hopefully if she would still like to be friends she will contact me first over the next few days.

If she doesn't... Then I will be crushed over losing possibly the most relatable person I have ever met.

Should I try to hang out with her again when I am next available? Or is our friendship also something I will never get back?

- Harry

It sounds like a really big misunderstanding, in my opinion. You all was getting along so well and having a great time with each other. And when the conversation about....

" But before I left hers, I asked if she would like to go out as more than friends? To which she replied: "didn't we do that today?" And I said: "well, it wasn't very clear..."

I think she might have thought you was asking for more of a serious relationship, maybe even sexual is what she might have been thinking. The best thing to do is clear the air, don't let this misunderstand mess up a really good friendship that could actually become more later. I think if you are honest with her, she will respect it and maybe you two can start fresh again.... good luck!!!!

The best thing to do is clear the air, don't let this misunderstand mess up a really good friendship that could actually become more later. I think if you are honest with her, she will respect it and maybe you two can start fresh again.... good luck!!!!I agree with wahcashmom Harry. Be honest with her and see what happens.

Let us know how it goes.

Thanks for your input guys, this is exactly what I wanted to do. I have texted her and she said she is busy but she'll let me know. (she started the text with "ill let you know?" so I'm waiting for a reply. Hopefully we will see each other and catch up. I'll start a normal convo and if she is acting differently, I'll bring it up. I'll let you know how it goes.

Thanks again

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Girl who seems interested in me didn't reply to my call?

We haven't met, contacted for a a long while and want to meet one day. Been talking through text to get to know each other so it's no huge deal, but I click with her.

Only in the past 3 months we have been flirting, she initiates conversations too and when we phoned a few of weeks ago, the phone conversation flew really well and she said "It was nice speaking to you :-) x" then sent me a text a few days later saying ":-) x"

But fast forwarding to last saturday, I sent a flirty text and she responded in a very playful and flirty way, so I said I'd phone her on the sunday (in a flirty way) but she mentioned she had work from 8pm to 7am so she wasn't sure when she would be awake, but that I could phone her at some point.

I decided to avoid in case she was tired and phoned Monday and got no answer, without realising she was out, she texted "Out for tea sorry x". I didn't reply to her text and phoned her instead 3 days later and got no answer, however noticed she made a couple of tweets on Twitter an hour later (when I was on Twitter myself).

The call didn't go to voicemail, it said "this number is currently unavailable", which was the same as the call earlier in the week when she replied with a text, but wondering whether she didn't get it or if it was a hint.

Should I just not bother contacting and let her instead? What if she didn't get my missed call and thinks I'm ignoring her text instead?

Exactly!

If you don't contact her you risk missing out on a nice meeting and something
which could develop. If you contact her, you'll at least know where you stand.

Exactly!

If you don't contact her you risk missing out on a nice meeting and something
which could develop. If you contact her, you'll at least know where you stand.

Thank you for the reply. Wasn't sure if it got through as she replied to my last missed call.. Thinking of texting Sunday and leaving it 2-3 days.

Good for you and I wish you all the luck!

Let us know how it turns out.

Good for you and I wish you all the luck!

Let us know how it turns out.

When I mentioned she was tweeting, she was on Twitter talking to her friend and was as if my missed call hadn't been acknowledged like last time, so I assumed either it never got through or she was throwing me a hint.

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Girl who seems interested in me didn't reply to my call?

We haven't met, contacted for a a long while and want to meet one day. Been talking through text to get to know each other so it's no huge deal, but I click with her.

Only in the past 3 months we have been flirting, she initiates conversations too and when we phoned a few of weeks ago, the phone conversation flew really well and she said "It was nice speaking to you :-) x" then sent me a text a few days later saying ":-) x"

But fast forwarding to last saturday, I sent a flirty text and she responded in a very playful and flirty way, so I said I'd phone her on the sunday (in a flirty way) but she mentioned she had work from 8pm to 7am so she wasn't sure when she would be awake, but that I could phone her at some point.

I decided to avoid in case she was tired and phoned Monday and got no answer, without realising she was out, she texted "Out for tea sorry x". I didn't reply to her text and phoned her instead 3 days later and got no answer, however noticed she made a couple of tweets on Twitter an hour later (when I was on Twitter myself).

The call didn't go to voicemail, it said "this number is currently unavailable", which was the same as the call earlier in the week when she replied with a text, but wondering whether she didn't get it or if it was a hint.

Should I just not bother contacting and let her instead? What if she didn't get my missed call and thinks I'm ignoring her text instead?

Exactly!

If you don't contact her you risk missing out on a nice meeting and something
which could develop. If you contact her, you'll at least know where you stand.

Exactly!

If you don't contact her you risk missing out on a nice meeting and something
which could develop. If you contact her, you'll at least know where you stand.

Thank you for the reply. Wasn't sure if it got through as she replied to my last missed call.. Thinking of texting Sunday and leaving it 2-3 days.

Good for you and I wish you all the luck!

Let us know how it turns out.

Good for you and I wish you all the luck!

Let us know how it turns out.

When I mentioned she was tweeting, she was on Twitter talking to her friend and was as if my missed call hadn't been acknowledged like last time, so I assumed either it never got through or she was throwing me a hint.

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Been friends for years but I said I didn't like him back but I do. My biggest mistake

Hi I am here to get some help maybe if there is someone or maybe there is someone with a similar situation I could talk to.I guess I better start.

It's about me and my friend let's call him K. .
Me and K. have known eachother since summer of 2005. It actually was an incidental meeting xD He and his family moved opposite to our house.

Me and my friends were playing soccer outside and I saw his sister, she was shy but not to me because I met her the day before and was playing a little bit with her. ( she was about 3 or 4 years old) She wanted to play with me again, we needed people to play anyway because a few weeks ago friends from us (they were brothers) moved away and the little girl with her family moved in.

My friends asked me to ask the little girl if her brothers would like to play with us, just for fun.

I did it, and after a while they came outside. One who was like 4 years older than me, another one who was probably 7 or 8 and K. who was a year older than me.

We played till lunchtime then everyone went home. Me and him were the first to return to play soccer again, so we sat down and started talking for about 20- 30 minutes.

After that he joined a sports club were I was and our friendship began.

Our friendship was differend than all my others, a good different I think xD

Except sometimes it was like a love and hate relationship. We went from talking and seeing eachother everyday for 4-5 months to not talking at all for 2 or 3 months. But neither of us knew the reasons at the end or we thought it was a stupid reason and it couldn't be it because it was a small one. We then forgot about it and acted like it never happened.

2009 he had to go to another school which is at the same street like ours but has another focus you could say...

Anyway in the same year I figured out that I am a Lesbian well I thought so. I never thought about any guy except him but back then I thought it was just a friends thing. ( Oh how wrong was I :D )

About 6 Months later I wasn't that sure anymore. I started to notice guys and slowly espacially K.
So I just called myself Bi. I couldn't tell anyone anyway because I live where people "hate" homosexual people. Sadly my brother found out, but that's another story.

In Apri or May '10 I started to talk to K. again because since he left we almost never did.
August I got to the same school he went we both are in 10th grade. He was supposed to be in grade 11 but he had to repeat the year.

On the first day he was showing me around and we spend the breaks together. (15min, 15min, and once a week + 45 min & we were waiting for the bus together)
When we were standing outside I asked him why we didn't talk last year. He said that he didn't want to be near me, I felt bad but he said he needed time to himself but he does not want to stop talking to me again because he missed me.

Later on we made promise to eachother to never go back to our old ways and just stop talking because we are friends and friends aren't weird to eachother. I know it was weird but we were children back then ( 16 and he 17).
It went really good till December 2010. I think it was the 17th when we were at school and our school had problems with the heater because of the cold and snow. At 10 am we were send home but the next bus would only drive home at 12.

So we went to his grandparents apartment. I met them before so it wasn't weird at all. But the thing is that everyone always thought we were a couple so did they. We spend about 40 min explaining that we aren't, when we finally did his aunt came by and it started all again xD

When we decided to go we said our goodbyes and his grandma said something like "I hope that you and your gf will visit soon again and stop lying about not beeing in love" oO

When we were walking I god alot of compliments and how I lost so much weight ( I was always thin but something happened that I gained aloot of weight. In about a month I lost 15 Kg (35lbs). And then again 4 kg ( 8.8lbs). But he liked me aswell back then.

December 19th we were texting and he asked me why we were just friends. I only replied with "what do you mean". And he said that he had feelings for me. I acted like I didn't because back then I tried to tell myself I didn't.

Reality was that I did have feelings. But:
-I was insecure about my body and cutting myself
-I wasn't sure about my sexuality BI or LESBIAN??? That's why I didn't want to hurt him I told myself because what would I do if I figure out I am gay. Or what if a girl comes around? He wouldn't deserve that. He didn't deserve to get hurt.
-Since I was insecure about myself I thought I didn't deserve him and I was never good enough
-Another reason or excuse for me was that I told myself "What if it was just a joke and he'd just play me because of these so called "friends" he had, who were mine aswell but we werent anymore

I had alot of them but sadly I did hurt him aswell as me but I would only feel how much later.

When I told K. that I only wanted to be friends he said it was fine and I was right because in a few months we would probably have an argument and not talk to eachother for a week or so.

After that night we stopt talking again, but that time I knew the reason. He needed time to himself. In April I felt the worst I had. Like I said I lost alot of weight back, but it was because I was starving and purging. Which I had stopped. I was fine even thought I had gained 6 Kg.

In April stopped labeling myself which was the good part. But the bad one was that I missed him too much and I figured I'd talk to him again and finally tell him.

I found out he was seeing someone and he was about to ask her to be his gf. So I didn't tell him. That night I started to purge and cut myself again. They were the deepest cuts I ever did :/

He tried to text me everyday after that or whenever I was on FaceBook. But I guess he figured out I wasn't much interested in talking to him because I only replied to every question with one or two words only. When the truth is I wanted nothing else as talking to him. But there was this girl I couldn't stop thinking about. The girl he was seeing at the time, she was beautiful, much more then I could ever be. I had no chance and I couldn't deal with it.

August was fine again. After and in school we made small talk and I found out that things with the girl didn't work out. I was ready to tell him. I was finally better than before. I had more self esteem, had a better relationship with food and wasn't cutting myself about 2months. I even told a friend of mine that I don't label myself and I am in love with him.

One day I wanted to ask him to maybe meet me on the weekend to hang out like we did before. But before I could even ask I read a status for everyone to see.

K. is in a relationship with " girls name "

I wished him good luck. That night I was crying the whole night, never falling asleep.

It was horrible and good at the same time.

Because whenever I logged in FB there were love- letters to eachother.

It broke me, but at the same time I was happy, happy because he found happyness. They even got engaged. But December 18th 2011 they broke up. One day and one year before we would have been toghter if I'd have said yes.

After that he completly changed.

He started seeing a couple of girls at the same time. Got more often drunk and things like that.

One thing before he changed was that he invited me to spend the New Year's with him. But I didn't because I remembered how we once did want to spend it together but didn't. That night when he didn't show up I was all alone.

But New Years I spend with my parents, his parents and little sister.

His mom said when we were alone that she'd wish us both happyness but sadly she could see that we weren't, then she said that, he was happy whenever he was spending time with me or he'd sit in his room she'd walk in and he'd close the page but most of the time she sees it was me he was texting.

But it was too late, he changed to much. I couldn't blame him. I was the only one who did make the biggest mistake of their life.

In March 2012 we were texting like all the time before even when he was with his girlfriend. It was the first time that we didn' stop talking after 4 Months or so. At that we laughed.

April or May he was complaining about missing a girlfriend. I asked him if I should help him with that, it was only a joke but he said yes. It hurt but I didn't let it show.

I suggested some, but he didn't like them. So I asked him what he'd look for in a girl.

I fiited everything. I texted back :" Well I don't smoke, I am shorter than you, I am not under 16, I am good at school and I am a half russian. But it's not what you're looking for, sooo"

He answerd " Why not?"

I wanted to write back "Because I love you and it'd scare you how much I do and I am Fat. I am and never will be good enough." But I only replied: " Because it'd be arrogant to say I am, myself"
He only said "If you think so. K"

I forgot to mention that he and I was driving together by car to school since February 2012.

We kept talking till June of this year normaly, but I didn't say I have feelings for him because he was seeing girls and I was still not that self-secure, because believe me those girls are beautiful.

We stopped talking because of exams but we still said hey to eachother. Then we started our summer jobs, whenever he was not working I was and when I was home he worked.

Now that School for me started we slowly talk again. He has to go to school once a week and sometimes twice. On these days we will be driving again together.

At this time he is seeing no one at least that's what he told me.
I am 18 now and he is 19. We still live in the same street. And at the moment we talk sometimes. But the reason I am insecure is about the girls who like him.( They are more beautiful than me)

That was my story for now.

I was wondering what you think.

Like do you think we have a chance? Should I tell him? If I do maybe you have some tips how? And maybe some Signals that I now that he still likes me as more than a friend? Is it selfish of me to think that after all he still likes me And gives me a chance?
What is more Important to you the looks and what friends say like "gosh shes's ugly or she's beautiful?" or personality?

I hope someone will actually answer me . But if not it is fine I guess because at least it felt good to write it all down.

Idunno (:

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Been friends for years but I said I didn't like him back but I do. My biggest mistake

Hi I am here to get some help maybe if there is someone or maybe there is someone with a similar situation I could talk to.I guess I better start.

It's about me and my friend let's call him K. .
Me and K. have known eachother since summer of 2005. It actually was an incidental meeting xD He and his family moved opposite to our house.

Me and my friends were playing soccer outside and I saw his sister, she was shy but not to me because I met her the day before and was playing a little bit with her. ( she was about 3 or 4 years old) She wanted to play with me again, we needed people to play anyway because a few weeks ago friends from us (they were brothers) moved away and the little girl with her family moved in.

My friends asked me to ask the little girl if her brothers would like to play with us, just for fun.

I did it, and after a while they came outside. One who was like 4 years older than me, another one who was probably 7 or 8 and K. who was a year older than me.

We played till lunchtime then everyone went home. Me and him were the first to return to play soccer again, so we sat down and started talking for about 20- 30 minutes.

After that he joined a sports club were I was and our friendship began.

Our friendship was differend than all my others, a good different I think xD

Except sometimes it was like a love and hate relationship. We went from talking and seeing eachother everyday for 4-5 months to not talking at all for 2 or 3 months. But neither of us knew the reasons at the end or we thought it was a stupid reason and it couldn't be it because it was a small one. We then forgot about it and acted like it never happened.

2009 he had to go to another school which is at the same street like ours but has another focus you could say...

Anyway in the same year I figured out that I am a Lesbian well I thought so. I never thought about any guy except him but back then I thought it was just a friends thing. ( Oh how wrong was I :D )

About 6 Months later I wasn't that sure anymore. I started to notice guys and slowly espacially K.
So I just called myself Bi. I couldn't tell anyone anyway because I live where people "hate" homosexual people. Sadly my brother found out, but that's another story.

In Apri or May '10 I started to talk to K. again because since he left we almost never did.
August I got to the same school he went we both are in 10th grade. He was supposed to be in grade 11 but he had to repeat the year.

On the first day he was showing me around and we spend the breaks together. (15min, 15min, and once a week + 45 min & we were waiting for the bus together)
When we were standing outside I asked him why we didn't talk last year. He said that he didn't want to be near me, I felt bad but he said he needed time to himself but he does not want to stop talking to me again because he missed me.

Later on we made promise to eachother to never go back to our old ways and just stop talking because we are friends and friends aren't weird to eachother. I know it was weird but we were children back then ( 16 and he 17).
It went really good till December 2010. I think it was the 17th when we were at school and our school had problems with the heater because of the cold and snow. At 10 am we were send home but the next bus would only drive home at 12.

So we went to his grandparents apartment. I met them before so it wasn't weird at all. But the thing is that everyone always thought we were a couple so did they. We spend about 40 min explaining that we aren't, when we finally did his aunt came by and it started all again xD

When we decided to go we said our goodbyes and his grandma said something like "I hope that you and your gf will visit soon again and stop lying about not beeing in love" oO

When we were walking I god alot of compliments and how I lost so much weight ( I was always thin but something happened that I gained aloot of weight. In about a month I lost 15 Kg (35lbs). And then again 4 kg ( 8.8lbs). But he liked me aswell back then.

December 19th we were texting and he asked me why we were just friends. I only replied with "what do you mean". And he said that he had feelings for me. I acted like I didn't because back then I tried to tell myself I didn't.

Reality was that I did have feelings. But:
-I was insecure about my body and cutting myself
-I wasn't sure about my sexuality BI or LESBIAN??? That's why I didn't want to hurt him I told myself because what would I do if I figure out I am gay. Or what if a girl comes around? He wouldn't deserve that. He didn't deserve to get hurt.
-Since I was insecure about myself I thought I didn't deserve him and I was never good enough
-Another reason or excuse for me was that I told myself "What if it was just a joke and he'd just play me because of these so called "friends" he had, who were mine aswell but we werent anymore

I had alot of them but sadly I did hurt him aswell as me but I would only feel how much later.

When I told K. that I only wanted to be friends he said it was fine and I was right because in a few months we would probably have an argument and not talk to eachother for a week or so.

After that night we stopt talking again, but that time I knew the reason. He needed time to himself. In April I felt the worst I had. Like I said I lost alot of weight back, but it was because I was starving and purging. Which I had stopped. I was fine even thought I had gained 6 Kg.

In April stopped labeling myself which was the good part. But the bad one was that I missed him too much and I figured I'd talk to him again and finally tell him.

I found out he was seeing someone and he was about to ask her to be his gf. So I didn't tell him. That night I started to purge and cut myself again. They were the deepest cuts I ever did :/

He tried to text me everyday after that or whenever I was on FaceBook. But I guess he figured out I wasn't much interested in talking to him because I only replied to every question with one or two words only. When the truth is I wanted nothing else as talking to him. But there was this girl I couldn't stop thinking about. The girl he was seeing at the time, she was beautiful, much more then I could ever be. I had no chance and I couldn't deal with it.

August was fine again. After and in school we made small talk and I found out that things with the girl didn't work out. I was ready to tell him. I was finally better than before. I had more self esteem, had a better relationship with food and wasn't cutting myself about 2months. I even told a friend of mine that I don't label myself and I am in love with him.

One day I wanted to ask him to maybe meet me on the weekend to hang out like we did before. But before I could even ask I read a status for everyone to see.

K. is in a relationship with " girls name "

I wished him good luck. That night I was crying the whole night, never falling asleep.

It was horrible and good at the same time.

Because whenever I logged in FB there were love- letters to eachother.

It broke me, but at the same time I was happy, happy because he found happyness. They even got engaged. But December 18th 2011 they broke up. One day and one year before we would have been toghter if I'd have said yes.

After that he completly changed.

He started seeing a couple of girls at the same time. Got more often drunk and things like that.

One thing before he changed was that he invited me to spend the New Year's with him. But I didn't because I remembered how we once did want to spend it together but didn't. That night when he didn't show up I was all alone.

But New Years I spend with my parents, his parents and little sister.

His mom said when we were alone that she'd wish us both happyness but sadly she could see that we weren't, then she said that, he was happy whenever he was spending time with me or he'd sit in his room she'd walk in and he'd close the page but most of the time she sees it was me he was texting.

But it was too late, he changed to much. I couldn't blame him. I was the only one who did make the biggest mistake of their life.

In March 2012 we were texting like all the time before even when he was with his girlfriend. It was the first time that we didn' stop talking after 4 Months or so. At that we laughed.

April or May he was complaining about missing a girlfriend. I asked him if I should help him with that, it was only a joke but he said yes. It hurt but I didn't let it show.

I suggested some, but he didn't like them. So I asked him what he'd look for in a girl.

I fiited everything. I texted back :" Well I don't smoke, I am shorter than you, I am not under 16, I am good at school and I am a half russian. But it's not what you're looking for, sooo"

He answerd " Why not?"

I wanted to write back "Because I love you and it'd scare you how much I do and I am Fat. I am and never will be good enough." But I only replied: " Because it'd be arrogant to say I am, myself"
He only said "If you think so. K"

I forgot to mention that he and I was driving together by car to school since February 2012.

We kept talking till June of this year normaly, but I didn't say I have feelings for him because he was seeing girls and I was still not that self-secure, because believe me those girls are beautiful.

We stopped talking because of exams but we still said hey to eachother. Then we started our summer jobs, whenever he was not working I was and when I was home he worked.

Now that School for me started we slowly talk again. He has to go to school once a week and sometimes twice. On these days we will be driving again together.

At this time he is seeing no one at least that's what he told me.
I am 18 now and he is 19. We still live in the same street. And at the moment we talk sometimes. But the reason I am insecure is about the girls who like him.( They are more beautiful than me)

That was my story for now.

I was wondering what you think.

Like do you think we have a chance? Should I tell him? If I do maybe you have some tips how? And maybe some Signals that I now that he still likes me as more than a friend? Is it selfish of me to think that after all he still likes me And gives me a chance?
What is more Important to you the looks and what friends say like "gosh shes's ugly or she's beautiful?" or personality?

I hope someone will actually answer me . But if not it is fine I guess because at least it felt good to write it all down.

Idunno (:

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