First off I apologize for the length. I am just really confused.
I started talking to this girl last August because we sat next to each other in a class(we are seniors). We got closer and closer and by November I realized I really liked her. In the beginning of December, I came out and told her how I felt. She responded by telling me how she did like me too but was not looking for a serious relationship at the time because she had been hurt by other guys and was playing it safe and felt we should get to know each other better so she could be sure. She ended the conversation by telling me "I hope you understand I am not crossing out the future between us".

Well I spent the remainder of December really trying to win her over and it honestly seemed like it was working. We were talking all day everyday, she began being a lot more open with me, and we were really starting to get to know each other better. She had even told what these past guys had done to her. Her first official boyfriend spiked her drink and sexually assaulted her after prom sophomore year( he was a senior) and was physically abusive to her the whole time they were together and the last guy she was with was psychologically abusive and cheated on her twice while she was in the hospital for a month and told her after she found out "I do not have to worry about you cheating on me because you are all screwed up and nobody would ever want you anyway." and just always made her feel worthless. I understood she has been through a lot but I always reassured her that I was different and that I genuinely cared for her and always told her I would always be there for her. I never made any physical moves on her though because I still was not sure exactly how she felt and exactly where I stood in her life.

But she randomly started to become distant with me at the beginning of January, winter break, (stopped responding to texts and began backing out or not following through on plans we made) and our relationship just kinda died out within those two weeks. We went back to school on January 13th and sit next to each other in two classes. Our relationship has rekindled into a close friendship and nothing more. We hang out outside of school sometimes with a group of friends and we text more often but nowhere near what it was like. Often times too, I find myself being used by her and find myself always trying to make her happy whenever possible.

My problem is that I still really like her and she has been on my mind everyday since the day I told her how I felt. Unfortunately for me she has since seriously talked to one other guy (at the time when she started to become distant with me) but that ended because she has a sickness, the one she was in the hospital for, he felt he could not handle(which has never been and never will be a problem for me and she knows that) and ended things with her(I know this because she told me) and it kinda seems like she has a thing now with a friend of mine but she denies it to everybody. (Keep in mind this is after she told me she was not looking for a relationship). We even had one interesting conversation two weeks ago when she texted me at 1 in the morning asking me why I used to like her. SO at that instant I realized she thought my feelings for her left. I responded to her by first reassuring her that I still liked her and then gave her basically an essay on why I like her. It seemed a little weird why she would ask so I also called her out on why she was asking me. When she responded, she totally avoided the part about me still liking her and that the reason she asked was because she had finally come to the realization that her last boyfriend(the mentally abusive one) was not good for her and the he could never tell her why he liked her and after the last guy she was talking to ended things because of her sickness, she asked me and a few of her friends why we like her so she could reassure herself that it was "personality that mattered most".

With us just being good friends after the "past" we have, does it seem like I am just forever going to be a good friend or could it ever turn into something more? I Know I am not just another one of her casual friends because I met her parents last week when I went to her house to help them move houses and her parents knew everything about me before we had even met so obviously she talks about me with her parents(who, especially her mom, LOVE me by the way).

We went from friends, to close friends, to more than close friends but not together in a relationship, to two weeks of no contact, to close friends again. Ultimately, I just want to be with her but I do not want to waste any more time if it will never happen.