I am seeing a guy ( I think I made a thread about him some time ago when we had just started meeting).
So we've been on 4 dates, and last date we were out riding horses (was really fun) and I met some of his family that own the farm. And afterwards we went to his place and ate dinner and saw a movie and made out on the couch. It was a rather intense makeout session and I didn't say that I didn't want to go all the way with him then so I ended up feeling bad when I asked him to drive my to the station. He told me I could stay over and sleep in an own bed if I wanted, so he wasn't angry, but he was dissapointed. It was really late and he had to get up really early which he told me. He drove me to the station, and just before I got out of the car I was a little cold towards him, I don't know why but at least we kissed and I gave him a hug and he asked to meet me again on a particular day and I said I didn't know if I could then.

I'm so ambivalent towards him, this is the first date we have kissed, so it was a rather sudden transition from almost no body contact to a very sexual kissing and touching. maybe that's why it felt a bit weird. Because one part of me really liked it, then another felt uncomfortable since I don't know him and I wanted him to hold me and hug me but he got so sexual. I'm also afraid that I'm not good enough for him. "Did he like kissing me" etc, but he got very turned on.
I also don't know what I want, what he wants.. He never give me compliments, it's not like I need him to do it, but Ive never been dating a guy without him saying anything. He only says it is nice to meet me etc. He also has a little daughter from before. I'm afraid I'm driving him away with acting hot and cold, I don't intend to do it. I don't know why I'm feeling like I do, I like him but sometimes it's like I don't.. But I miss him when I don't see him and I don't know what he wants with me. He always asks for new dates when we are about to leave eachother, usually creative dates where we can do things together.

1. First of all, was it mean to give him the blue balls for then to leave? It's not like I planned to do it.
2. What can I do to be more sure of what I want? It's like I think he could hold me and touch me in a emotional way so i can figure out if I really want him to do it lol. I'm also afraid of getting hurt if I continue seeing him. He has a child, so he probably would dump me really fast if he sensed I wouldn't get along well with his kid. I do love kids
3. Does he seem really interested? It didn't take him long before he got very sexual when we were making out. But before that he never touched me in a sexual way. He also seems rather distant today through text msg, I sent him a text first. We went 3 first dates with me being rather distant, then suddenly making out like that.

I'm so confused about him..